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This track is about my life. Its my demons on a beat. Enjoy
lyrics
Mother, where you going/
Doctor, what's he saying/
Cancer, he must be playing/
Banter, ya he's joking/
Never?/
Best start praying/
Just start praying/
Father, sits there crying/
Fighter, ya she's trying/
Sister, mamas dying/
Why her?/
That is the question/
Hey savior, what happened/
Hey creator, stop slacking/
Don't take her, what are you doing/
A monster/
That's what you're making/
Popping pills for patience/
Anger as a new obsession/
This is my final confession/
As a human/
Before I lose it/
God how could you do this!/
How could you do this!/
Religion is missing, when your/
Sitting there wishing, just for/
Something to happen, and start/
Stopping the puking, my heart/
Racing and thumping thinking the coughing/
Is leading turning to choking or gagging/
She's shaking and saying/
Nothing, no help me/
Fighting so bravely/
Fading to quickly/
Becoming a memory/
Now I'm in the basement eating/
Hoping that I'm somehow helping/
Listen to her barely breathing/
Praying God start intervening/
nope/
Running from something or nothing/
Smoking and drinking ain't funny/
Choking and drowning ain't healthy/
Abusing depressants escaping/
Mentally mending the damage/
Physically feeling such anguish/
Watching my mother wither to ashes/
Michael when you not high?/
Man you ain't the same guy/
I guess something's bear repeating/
It's all that I have been hearing/
The things that I have been learning/
Friends use their backs for turning/
Using their feet for leaving/
Using their ass for talking/
Using your pictures for papers/
Burning your presents for pleasure/
Yearning for presence of pressure/
Learning from peasants of failure/
Life shows like a teacher/
Death is a blind painter/
Painting what is the big picture/
Now are you seeing our future?
These brush strokes with no warning/
Have me mourning in terror/
After hearing death chatter/
Michael pentimento tomorrow/
I'd bite a bullet better/
Kiss a clever rather/
Drown in sewer water hotter than a mullet on Miley Cyrus's father/
Than having God messing with taking my mother/
Or killing a trusting and loving nice daughter/
Than trying and teaching a grieving young sister/
On praying forgive her for living dear savior/
Don't bother oh brother another dead friend/
One mother one father no daughter start over/
So neighbor and teacher now gather remember/
The driver is sorry for hitting her Amen/
Messiah or Yahweh/
And Allah Nomatsday/
But um ya I must say/
Mariah/
Was not yours to take/
For God's sake she was my mate/
Shake and bake and her fate/
Did not end on that date/
She lives within us/
This is my defiance against sick sly nonsense/
Believing thick obedience to divine beings is reason and thinking is treason/
Tis the season/
Stop it/
Here's a middle finger I found in my pocket/
Take it/
I'm leaving/
Off dreaming/
With John Lennon/
credits
released September 27, 2013
Thank you to Chris Amond. Could not and would not have done this without you. Thank you for all your work.